Long Time

My Goodness didn't realize how long it has been. I want to thank you all for checking in on me. That alone lifts my spirits.

Has taken docs a long time to find the source of my back and leg problems. Will see a doc soon for pain management. Still praying for the answer, if I need to take off work for 4 weeks to heal correctly.

We now have a daughter living in the camper here with 3 of her kids. Husband dumped them and she had bruises all over again. This has been an 8 yr. battle. And he told me he wished my husband would die with one of these heart attacks.

My husband gave us a scare for another heart attack. I prayed all the way into the hospital, "devil you are a liar so get behind me! My God is able, and he knows I am not able to handle this again right now." Praise God he is fine,docs don't know what happen to him.

I know we are to love and forgive our enemies. It's so hard in this human body, this outward man to do this. As I struggle to do this, I am reminded that as the outward man is dying, the inward man is growing.

May each of you be blessed. And stay in his word. Our time is growing so short. Yet we will have the victory through it all.

The fight

Didn't know how I was going to start this today. I have so much running through my mind. I will try to stick with just a few ideas.

Went to Iowa 2 weeks ago for a funeral again. Only this one was hard for me. It was for Uncle Burt whom I loved dearly. The cancer had come back, not in his throat but pretty much everywhere else. He really went quickly.
I prayed for him like I did my own dad. Lord give him back to us whole, or please take him quickly with little pain. And the Lord did just that.

Please keep his stepdaughter Pennie and family in your prayers. She has a medical backround and Burt made her promise to stay and take care of him to the end, and she did.And did an excellent job with him.
Now we have learned her father-in-law has become very ill, and they don't give him much time at all. A week maybe.

Today a dear Sister from church told us her cancer maybe back. Years back it was in her throat. She has had a terrible time with her back the past few months. She was seeing a chiro. Went in for her regular cancer check up, and now she goes in tomorrow to the cancer doctors. They believe cancer has returned and is in her back.

I believe God is the same yesterday, today, and forever. And I believe he is still in the healing business.

I hurt my back or hip, maybe both, the Saturday before Mother's day. Don't know what I did. I have gone down to just taking the 800mg of ibu. But some days that is not enough. Have good days and bad. Just coming off a bad weekend. Took too many ibu' and made myself sick.
I am still working and pressing on. The trip to Iowa wasn't much help. And my job isn't much help some days.
Yet I am fully relying on God. I have no one else---he is my only hope.

So many people are going through so much. It can be family problems, job problems, health problems. But I really think that God is bringing us through all this to make us stronger for the last days.

Time is getting too short. Satan is on the attack full force and then some.
Children of God, stand up!!!!! Don't let your guard down. And if you have, do not delay-----Pick your armor back up and be ready to fight.
Perhaps you are too tired of it all for yourself, don't stop fighting. Look around, I am sure if you can't seem to find the power to fight for yourself. There is some one close by that needs your help. Make yourself strong for them.

Hope all have been blessed this Mother's Day.

I know I was. Received cards and gifts from all my kids. And my hubby--a card and a ring that I love. In 35 yrs, I have never received anything from him because I wasn't
HIS MOTHER. Oh my this was such a shock==I'm still trying to recover.

Sista Cala and her cowboy were here last weekend. What a blessing. She taught Sunday school and mixed it with a sermon. Had a wonderful visit with them. Just not enough time.

I have been home all weekend. Haven't left the house. Guess these old legs decided it was time to rest. Could hardly walk. But I am getting around better now---oh goodness, just in time to go back to work.

I was already thinking if I would go to church or not this weekend. Didn't know if I could handle the pain of my family not being there with me one more year.
Guess the Lord made that decision for me.

To all those that their mom is still with them. Cherish those moments. And take the time to call them.
To those whos moms have gone on to be with the Lord. Cherish the memories that you have. And pass those memories down to your children.

Update---Kinda long.

Guess I better fill you all in.
First of all I want to thank my sisters who have been checking on me, your encouragement came at a perfect time. Thank-You (A&C&C)

Uncle Bert seems to be sleeping alot now. Not sure how much time is left. Hospice has been called in. And last I talked to him I had a really hard time understanding him. Don't know if this is normal or not. Praise God his pain is minimal for now.
The pastor that I liked so well up there, has been to the house many, many times. Again Praise God. The Lord is Uncle Bert's Savior now!!!! I did understand him when he told me he was kinda shaky and afraid.

Have had too many irons in the fire lately. You know how that goes.
Going back to work for 10 hrs. a day is hard on me. I just move slower, and ask for a little more help from our younger people. When I catch myself having some difficulties breathing I am learning to stop and rest like I am suppose to.

Been checking on my mom quite a bit. She is so far away and she has been falling alot lately. Docs are trying to see what is causing this.

My 35th anniversary came and went. Our girls took us to Red Lobster for lunch. Hubby bought me a card. I got him several things. It's funny how women and men do not think alike at all sometimes. I had told all for the past year what I wanted to do for this special anniversary. Guess my words fell on deaf ears mostly. Wanted to renew my wedding vows (course he thought that was silly, he already did that once---men--go figure).And to ride in a limo.

The good Lord must have a sense of humor. I use to pray for the Lord to change my hubby. Then I prayed for me to be changed too.
Then 2 yrs. ago hubby had a major heart attack. And died at least 3 times. At first he was so on fire for God. I loved it. Now he still believes in God, but other things are more important. As I look over the past 2 yrs., I notice something. You would think after his heart attack he would have changed for good. But noooo. I am the one God decided to change!!!! Watch what you pray for.(smile)

Have been doing some Sunday morning and Wed. night bible teaching lately.
Guess I am doing okay. A year or so ago, I had thought about a minister's license, but now I am wondering if I really heard from the Lord on this one. I can't get any of my family to attend church with me. Except for my great granddaughter.
So with the non-events of the anniversary, the sadness with Uncle Bert, and non of my family members showing up to hear me teach,---well--guess I have just went into a little slump of sadness.

Don't have time to post much, yet have checked in on several of you when time permits.

Oh yeah, I forgot to mention. Last Sunday marked 1 full year of not smoking. Praise God. And wouldn't you know it. This past week has been a terrible struggle with the cravings all of a sudden---even in my dreams.

Blessings to all

Checking In

Thank you all that have been checking in. Don't have the time to post anymore like I would like to.
Many events have kept me busy.
I started back to work--which is taking me some time to get use to. My last day at work last week--I came home and feel asleep by 8:30 that night and didn't wake up until 8 the next morning. My kids think I am loony because I went back to work--and am working around chemicals with my lung problems. Yet I did seek the Lord on returning to this job (which runs March thru Oct.) I was torn and ask the Lord to speak to me. Which He did thru a dream.

On another note. My husband's Uncle has received some bad news. About 1- 1/2 yrs. ago he learned he had cancer in his throat. He turned to God then and survived all the treatments. Now we find the cancer is in his stomach,liver, and etc. And they are not giving him too long to live.
So now I am not sure what to say to him. The words I say seem empty right now.
Last year we were giving praise for his healing. And now this.

His mom was a woman of God. You see he has never been able to read, and he had been hurt in church because of this. So he pulled away. We had good visit about all that before he got sick. He does have the bible on tapes that we gave him.
I don't know, guess I don't know how a person would feel, knowing that your life is ending. The thoughts and questions that must run through your mind. And I feel so helpless with trying to give hope. I do know that I have shed enough tears for awhile. These people are like me second mom and dad.
They live so far away. And I don't like to be on the phone and sound like the doom and gloom person. I don't want him turning away from God again. Not Now.
I just keep praying for him, and maybe I was the one to nuture the seed a little.

May you all have a Blessed Easter and enjoy your family. For life is short.

Where is the Compassion

That old flu bug has really taken it's toll on people this winter. Praying all of you get better real soon.

I am getting older for sure. Too many times I hear my mom or dad's voice coming out of my mouth. (OH MY GOSH)

I having been watching our young people. And I don't know how to get them to step up and start taking a part in reaching out to others. Perhaps they are too busy.

Guess I am tired of seeing the lack of compassion in our churches today. It doesn't matter to me how caring people act-- in-- a church. As it does-- out-- away from the church. If you can't reach out to those within your own church body, how can you reach out to a lost and dying world?

Our younger ones like having titles and positions. Yet they don't want to take on the responsibilities which go along with the job. It's almost like they are playing a game. And do not acknowledge the seriousness of it all.

I know many have a heart to serve the Lord. But they do have to learn how to take instruction, and yes sometimes criticism.

I know this doesn't apply to all young people,yet I do hope the hearts of many will have the conviction that they need to do the Lord's work in these last days.

Does Anyone Care

Have you been struggling with this thought? I'm sure everyone does from time to time.
Yet, sometimes it sure makes you wonder.

I have watched people that have lots of education,but not much common sense.
Common sense knowledge is something that we acquire and apply without having to think about it.

You see a child fall. What do you do? Walk away saying--oh she's ok. Or do you go to the child, help them up and make sure she is ok? If you choose to do the later then you are using common sense.

Too many times I have seen just the opposite. Outside and inside the church. People are out just for themselves. The text books tell how one should handle different people and situations. That's good,yet without common sense,it's not practical.

To go through life without common sense,and compassion is just sad to me.
My Dad would tell us kids--not to use our heads as a hat rack and to use the common sense God gave you. It took many years for me to make sense out of that.

How sad to go through trials and tribulations feeling alone and like no one cares.
Take a good look around you. When was the last time you try to reach out to someone?
Do you know how to use a phone? Then call. Do you know how to write? Then pick up a pen and drop a short note. Quit standing back being to busy and thinking that someone else will take care of things. God is calling each and everyone of us to step up to the plate and take action.

Ask yourself today. Are you using that common sense or have you let the situations in you life make you into one of those book smart busy person?
Ask God to give you that compassion for others.